They were loving, equal partners whorespected each other, and that was all. She trusted Carl'sjudgment in all things -- even about her hair and her c...othes andher make-up -- his good taste dated back to the days when he hungout with girls as if he were practically one of them, and theywelcomed him among them because he was undemanding and his advicewas so valuable. When Maddy first heard about this part of Carl's life she merelyraised her eyebrows, but afterward she remembered to ask Carol. ’‘But, darling. You must be clean for tonight’s perfomance. And your ass is so pretty.’ He slapped my buttcheeks with an open hand. The water within gurgled. I was going to lose it.The enema continued until I was holding a full 2 quarts of warm sudsy water in my guts. He removed the probe which my rectum was loathe to release. I wondered how I would be able to move from this position without my ass leaking.‘Okay, pet. Off to the bathroom.’ Conner helped me get up. I clenched my asscheeks. “Yet you are not the Narth that was summoned by the Voice when Elders were chosen”.“Because Narth too rejects this role of Cosmic Elder and impartial guarantor of conditions. None of the Elders you have chosen remained impartial.After contemplation, all that is Narth decided to create a new young Narth, endow him with a physical form to explore the Prime Universe. This young Narth discovered concepts that the Nnnth rejected, the Arth forgot and the Narth lacked. Friendship, loyalty and love. Then, on the 4th April, there is the following rather coy entry: "I have been praying hard for courage to resist, but I still went to meet R this evening at 7pm. I don't know why I did it now . We went for a walk by the river and he put his arm around me. I didn't stop him! He kissed me up against a tree. I didn't stop him! He put his hand between my legs. I still didn't stop him! My faith is being tested. But I am resolved to never let this happen again". Well, I suppose you can guess what.