"But it's going to happen." You're sure?" she asked. "This could still just be a part-time thing, apleasant fetish that you could indulge in, once in...a while, like billionsof us do, our sexy fun away from prying eyes." No, it can't," I said, shaking my head, "Jessica is too strong in me,too prominent, too in front. This is who I am, but more importantly,this is who I want to be. I just can't imagine a life without being thisway, being as feminine as I can."I watched a tear roll down her. ’ ‘Ah.’ Ryan nodded. ‘I see. If love makes a person this goofy, then I’m glad I can live vicariously through you.’ ‘You’re just jealous. You’ll see. When you find someone, you’ll be crazy like I am.’ ‘If you say so.’ Ryan let the subject drop. They talked for a few more minutes, setting up details for the evening, and then Ryan got back to work. The next two hours zipped by as she worked to get all of her data entered and fill out her work log in time to meet Lara. She finished with a few. You could say I was up for it!!I decided to try my luck, walking back to my car I passed a car with a guy around my age in it, I could see he had a bit of a bulge in his jogging bottoms as I passed, we made eye contact and smiled at each other.I hurried back to my car, loaded my gear and drove back to where he was parked, he'd picked a nice quiet spot on the edge of a plantation. As I pulled up behind him I saw him watching me in his mirror, so I smiled again and he turned and winked at me, I. So i backed away and started pinching my nipples again. So i seen him looking through the hole at me so i gave him a good look at my dick and let it just be hard and not jerk it. I heard his belt being undone so i was going to the hole then his hand came through the hole so i let him play with my balls and dick i was enjoying it very much. Then he pulled his hand back through.. then told me to turn around he wants to feel my ass. I was so hot and turned on and buzzed i did it. He put some lube.