.just to satisfy your every desire".At 7 p.m. I was back in the hotel bar. John arrived almost immediately.I got up and followed him to the elevators....I said nothing and he even uttered a word.We entered the room in silence and only when we were in the room he spoke:"Come on boy I want you to suck my dick!" - he told me"As you wish" - I saidI stripped everything except my blue pants. I put on the black lycra mask I bought, that coved the whole head up to the neck and left only discovered my. Until I say spit it out - understand?"I nodded my head emphatically."Now start doing these dishes here in the sink! I'll be right back. Ihave a big surprise for you little sissy."Heidi walked off and left me there doing dishes with the soapy wash clothin my mouth. The taste of that soap in my mouth made me whimper. Heidiwalked back in the room and pulled the washcloth out of my mouth."Rinse and spit sweetie!" she said.I obeyed and hung my head in shame. I then felt Heidi lifting up theback. " You left him?" In a way, yes. Yes, I left him." Again, Deepali, what is it you want?" That's complicated," she said, sucking in a deep breath as if there was a lot to explain. "First, I want you to forgive me. I don't deserve it, but that's what really makes it forgiveness. I was just gullible and infatuated and flattered and fueled by adrenalin. I never should have taken up with him. Second, I want you to forgive yourself. You did nothing wrong, before or after that awful night, and I don't. When I reach the other side I can’t see her anymore. I start pushing my way through the crowd and jumping up to see better.I finally reach another street crossing and she is stopped waiting on her turn to cross. I start running to catch her. People are everywhere and I am having trouble getting to her. I see her start crossing the street and I run faster. Finally, I catch up to her. I run up beside her , out of breath from running, I try to speak.All I can get out is hello. She is startled by.