It wasn’t really a plea for mercy, or a disagreement with his assumptions, it was simply an acknowledgement of the cruel nature of the world. ‘It ...on’t hurt.’ ‘I know. It’s just…’ ‘You’re scared?’ ‘Yes.’ The man sighed — it was heavy and shook his whole body. ‘Do you want to know my secret?’ He asked rhetorically, shifting the cold, black weight from hand to hand. ‘What I do on these dark nights, just before it happens…I look up and try to find a star. Doesn’t matter which one, I look and. Julia and I were constant companions and Phillip was always welcome to join us. But he soon became more interested in boy scouts and little league than playing with us. He and Danny stopped inviting us to come to the tree house and we went our separate ways.Mr. and Mrs. Harvey were extremely patient with me. I knew they wanted me to call them father and mother, but I was uncomfortable letting them take the places of my real mom and dad. As my body changed from a scrawny kid with freckles and. " She's a virgin. The first time she was kissed by a boy was a month ago." She was here with me a month ago." She said you kissed her." That wasn't a real kiss." It was to her." When did you find out about all of this?" When you were in the tank. We talked about a lot of things while deciding on your haircut, clothes, and the room decorations." Was the harem tent bed her idea?" No that was mine; she picked the hairstyle and shave. I was so horny for you I couldn't decide."She's eighteen years. This dress was perfect for what she was doing in it. I knew that if I held my breath I could hear the swishing sound as her hips swayed. My chest got tight and a bit of sweat rolled from my forehead. The blood was pounding in my ears as I "semi" raced up the isle to see more of this vision of a woman. As I turned the corner all I was greeted to was empty isle, so I backed up and when to the next one. Same emptiness. Little voice in my mind said "Missed, again." It almost took effort to get back.