He’s alive!Thank the Lord Almighty.I actually saw him there, on the ground floor, mixed in with the crowd. But he looked so scared, so lost. I never...got the chance to speak with him... More memories come trickling back.I was on stage, watching the boys fuck those hideous bitches and somehow, they loved it? No it can’t be true ... That doesn’t seem possible, unless they’ve gone ape shit crazy.Am I misremembering that part?“Oh damn,” I feel myself turning a deep shade of red. I fucked that green. But the real attraction was through the doors to his right. He could see a large hot tub already bubbling and there were candles surrounding it. ‘Jessi! This is amazing!’ She smiled at him and hit the play button on the stereo. Rainforest sounds mixed with the piano filled the room. Zach took Jessi into his arms and kissed her gently. ‘I’ve been waiting a long time to do that.’ Jessi blushed again and took a step back. ‘Where are you going?’ he asked, taking her hands. Slowly, she started. “Tomorrow?” “Can’t do it. Thursday?” “Sure. Here’s the address.......” Needless to say, for the next 48 hours I was a complete bundle of nerves. I had second thoughts, third thoughts, and more thoughts after that. Several times I was on the point of emailing him to call if off, but I never could bring myself to do it. I got hard every time I thought about seeing him, how it might go. I jacked off twice that first night, once while my wife was cooking dinner, and second time long past midnight. There was comfort, though, in there being no capacity for misunderstanding, or judgement, or competition for attention.This intimacy with Jane was too delicious to leave by choice. He would usually fall asleep as he fed, with Pamela stroking his hair, and making little cooing sounds, as if he were a babyToday, the connection was broken when Pamela fell asleep first.Detaching, Penn lay beside her on the bed. He felt a sense of wonder for everything that his association with five very special.