I would be permitted to have friend over to the house whenever I wanted, and could use the telephone for reasonable calls. As he did not expect that m... duties would take up a lot of my time, he would not mind if I was to look for a part-time job, perhaps working in a pub. I was then asked if I had a driving licence, and if I could sew. I was suddenly glad that I had spent the money on learning to drive.He then asked why I had applied for the job, so I told him again about being in a ‘rut’, and. And it is OK for you to show me how you love me. And, for me to show you how I love you”.With that, Lynn put her wine flute down, and took my hand.“Let’s go to bed”.She led me to the bedroom. Lynn began to undress. I undressed. For the first time, I saw Lynn’s beautiful body.Lynn smiled. “It’s time”.We got into bed. We embraced, and kissed. We caressed each other. We took our time. I was lustful for her, but didn’t want to cheapen the moment. I wanted it to be beautiful.We didn’t have sex. I call it hell. See, Adam don’t love me cause I’m half white, he love me cuz I got . . . wut he call it . . . a regal air ‘bout me. I taint positive wut dat means fo’ sho’ but he say dat I be a queen where he from, a real live queen wit a crown ‘n all. Massa say not to beat me. I was hopin’ to get da whip cuzin I know da pain of da beatin’ be ova in a few days. Wut massa do to me, dat pain don’t neva go way. Dat pain be in my heart, you know, you kin’t touch it but it be dere, from de sun. “Well it is”, I replied. I asked her if she was getting married.She replied that marriage is for women who have nothing to do in life. I asked her what she meant by that. She asked me, “Do you think I am beautiful”. I was taken aback, she was a lady of sharp features but was dark. “You are dear Sugantha, but then whats the point”.“I am searching for a man who loves me the way I am”, she replied. In a great measure of humor I told her that I loved her. “You men you only think of women on the.