Hard until my arms or my clenched teeth started shaking.Weird "episodes" that maybe lasted 30 seconds to a minute and when they subsided, there was th...s huge feeling of release.. of accomplishment... even if I had no idea what I accomplished.So, even though I thought is was weird, the feeling afterwards made me not hate or fear this feeling when I felt the onset of an episode coming.Now fast forward a number of years and here's me in college, having the occasional girlfriend, but nothing overly. Nina, the blonde, turned to ask Kaia to help her out. And I felt my hips twitch when Kaia first extended her tongue and planted it into the back of Nina's throat before roaming her hands along Nina's body. At last, she began to help strip the hot blonde.Leanne, not to be left out, reached out to feel Kaia's wonderful curves and slip her own hands beneath the silk bathrobe of her friend.I was overwhelmed with visual imagery, and my heart began racing and picking up the tempo of the entire area.. After supper I'd uncorked a bottle of wine to let it breath. I gathered it and a couple of glasses, then taking Jordan's hand, went up to the bedroom. "The wine is for us for after our first session." I told Jordan as I set the wine and glasses down. "Let's go and have a shower." Jordan was naked in a flash and prodded me to hurry up. The shower was a fairly quick one, even with some 'touchy-feely' playing. I guess Jordan was anxious to get on with 'the real thing'."How do we do this?" Jordan. “I see, Sir!”“Now tell me what really happened.”She looked at me, thought about it a second and said, “I lost it. I was looking forward to our usual time together that night because I had a bad day at work. The tools I work with suddenly stopped working. It was a while before I realized they were malfunctioning and I had to retest a bunch of things after tools were fixed. The supervising NCO gave me a spanking for being so far behind. When I returned home I was seething mad, but I had it under.