She also tastes good.”“But I thought you were already a woman. Your father mentioned a confession...”Cynthia replied, “A childÔs misunderstan...ing my lord. The boy, a cousin, thought he was taking a path which I admit I led him to, but he and I were both confused. In fact he was taking another passage ... a rear entry if you will, you understand; he got only part of the tip in before ... Well, he was inexperienced, and excited, so ... he was so happy after it was over. For me there was very. .. little bitch" were just some of the words he used. "Look at yourself!" he yelled.I looked into the full length mirror on the den door and shuddered. I must have still been pretty drunk when I had gotten dressed, after some casual sex in an upstairs bedroom at the party, and done a poor job of it. My grey skirt was unbuttoned far enough up the thigh to see most of my black panties and there were enough buttons on my blue blouse done up wrong or not buttoned at all to let anyone see that I. Mother's death wasan abrupt termination of all my expectations to convince her I was reallya girl in male body. My yearning to femininity had no chances anymore. Myfate was to live with my father, a man, an officer. I was expecting himto start his attack on me every minute while the last cordon protectingme against the brutality my mother was gone.Burial was set on December 27th because of Christmas. There was noChristmas this year. The same day as my mother died father and I went toChristmas. I just don't see it as cheating. It's just, cheating I guess. Fuck, I don't know. I had sex with Shawna and Billy, and I thought it was gonna be a one time thing. Then we did it again, and a few more times after that. Before I knew it, I was having more sex with them, than with my husband. Then all of the sudden, you entered the mix, and I've just never looked back. I guess I'm cheating on him, but I don't think he'd be too heart broken. Maybe wallet broken, but not heart broken. I mean I'm not.