‘NO!’ Danielle screamed. She tried to twist and turn, fighting to get free. ‘Let go of her!’ I took a step towards her, or at least tried to b...fore officer Cunthead got in the way. ‘Take it easy, son. We’ve got court orders to take her back home. She’s been declared mentally handicapped.’ ‘But she’s not! Look at her!’ ‘It’s part of her condition.’ Her father stated, that false sadness becoming less and less authentic. ‘Let her go!’ I began to struggle against Officer Cunthead. His partner came. Bea delighted in these simple pleasures as I loved and delighted in her. So much of me died along with Bea, things I used to care about or notice. I forgot how beautiful the individual leaves were, seeing merely a mess to rake up. And I remembered how good my black walnuts tasted roasted hot out of the shell, or in Bea's turkey dressing. That day I noticed the fall foliage was at its peak. The leaves on the trees were vibrant and proud. Displaying their rich shades of reds, oranges, and. The boys danced around calling my name as the video played on. They watched for a couple minutes before Connor made the next connection. He ran over to the play box, dug around and pulled out the Nerf football I had given to each of the twins at Christmas.A minute later the twins were playing "foobah". One twin would cradle the ball at the far end of the family room the way Andy showed him and then try to run across the room without being caught by the other twin, Andy and me. The boys seemed. ’ ‘Oh Karen, I am sorry. I didn’t know…’ ‘Don’t be sorry. I don’t talk about it much.’ ‘Do you miss him?’ ‘Well, no… He was a real bastard. I’m sorry he died, but I am glad he’s out of our lives.’ I looked at James and saw complete attention there, no judgment. ‘That’s why the thing with Justin hit me so hard.’ ‘The thing with Justin? The guy you moved here with?’ ‘Yes. One night we got into an argument and he dislocated my shoulder before I was able to get away and call the police.’ James’.