. but you can sure as hell lose it.I have seen a lot of strange things in three lives ... I remember those. I don't remember being an indian and fight...ng in the 'red water.' Or any of those other lives the sweat lodge brought out..."Nevah happen, GI."But I have watched a race car run over the trunk, top and hood of three cars on the green flag and end up buried in the trunk of a fourth before he ever made the starting line ... so I KNOW you can lose it on the first.I am pleased to say no one. "I try for a calm I do not feel. What I feel is the lipstick on my lipsand my heart, beating as if I've run a mile. Two. Ten."I had this thought," he says. "It's Saturday, you're stuck in town. Ithought ... Look, how about coffee. I'm right downstairs." Ummm, Uuhhh, S... sure," I say. "Sure. I'll be right down. Give me asec'. I haven't done my hair yet." There's a too long pause. Done myhair?"Just give a sec, okay?," I almost stutter, before he can let me knowhe's heard.We both knew what a sec. Ashira looked up and Jake walked into the room. ‘Hi,’ Ashira murmured. Jake pressed a kiss to the top of Ashira’s head before leaning down and kissing the beautiful little girl in Ashira’s arms. ‘Did I hurt you?’ Jake asked in concern. Ashira shook her head and smiled. ‘It felt beyond wonderful,’ she assured him. Jake smiled and ran a finger of Serenity’s nose. The baby stopped suckling, looked at Jake for a minute and returned to her task. Ashira resisted the urge to squirm in her chair,. And she was shocked to hear this. I told her u can share with me, we r good friend now. how can I be happy sexually since he use to be drunk everyday and beat me everyday. dan I asked when is da last time u had sex. she said last time I had sex was 9 years ago. I was like wow, its long time, than she said ever since I had probelms with ur uncel, we didn’t had sex. dan I said how can u live without sex. than she was silent for 2 mins. dan I got up from sofa and went next to her and kissed her, I.