”All four of them burst out laughing – Jill included, and just for a moment I didn’t know what I should think or feel. Once again I was on the o...tside looking in, listening as they all joked about what a slut my wife of twenty years had become. How she had a rampant love of big black cocks, a love only slightly smaller than my love of watching, which all four of them had also laughed at.Should I feel worried? Should I feel embarrassed or humiliated? Or should I just own it for the truth it was,. I hoped I wouldn't haveto spend too much time listening to some of these current groups. Ilooked at some of her personal videos, and saw something I hadn'tremembered yet- she was very good at two things, one of which we shared.She was an expert swimmer, like me, even at 12. She was also a verygood ice- skater. Not any competition level, but she obviously verygood.I was so engrossed with the computer, that I didn't hear the doorbell.Mom knocked on the door, and when I opened it, Linda was. I pulled them up over my hips, and smoothed them into position.That moment will stay with me for the rest of my life. At that moment I wanted to be a woman full time, they can experience such lovely fabric next to their beautiful skin every day. I don't think I actually did very much for the next 5 minutes, except stand in amazement. I didn't care that I probably looked horrible in the lingerie, I didn't care that it was "wrong" all I knew that these panties had transported me to a world of. I may have lusted after women of Jill’s age, but when it actually came to talking to one I became rather tongue tied, which people who know me now might find slightly unbelievable. Jill broke the ice by asking about what I was doing at school and what I intended to study at university. She went on to ask about my hobbies which promised to be a more fruitful line of conversation. I replied that I enjoyed reading and that I did a little bit of painting. It turned out that we had similar interests.