I look into the mirror in the hospital room and I see she put my ponytailup high on the back of my head instead of on the bottom of my neck makingit l...ok like my little sisters hair."Mom." I see her look at me when I say that. "Okay sorry mommy you put myponytail up too high, it looks more like a girl's ponytail." I also lookdown at myself wearing the silly thin white short shorts as they bulge outfrom the plastic panties and diaper I am wearing under them.Lori walks up next to me and pulls my. (Meka) only if you take off your cloths off to and come in the bed with me. (Ias in a loud tone) Meka!(Meka) ok! but your hot when your mad. (Ias) and you’re a firth(Meka) no, I’m a nasty girl, don’t you like nasty girls? Meka lifted up my shirt and started to rub my bear chest. My cousin was a bitch! She knew all of my weakness and used them just to mess with my mind, but I never let her get to me, because I always had been able to out think her. Still I could never out talk my cousin; she. I just hoped that it hadn’t damaged our relationship. Breakfast was quiet and so was the trip out to field. Before heading back to the trailer, I took Ginger in my arms, looked her in the eyes and asked her why she was so quiet and if it had anything to do with last night. She looked back and tears started to well up in her eyes. She told me that she didn’t believe what she did last night and was so afraid that I would think less of her for what she did. I assured her that I actually. Since we were childhood friends, we knew each other quite well. Betty, Veronica, John and I had been together since second grade. It was strange watching us together, Betty and John were white with blue eyes and golden hair, while Veronica and I were dark as the night. Even in grade school we knew we were going to be friends all our lives. It hurt knowing that it was not possible any more. ‘I know. I love John like a brother, but if he has cheated on her I will rip him apart with my bare hands.