When J.B. moved in, he wanted to know why, if I had all this room, that my parents and him couldn't have moved in WITH me. When I told him that my par...nts wanted nothing to do with living in Hollywood, he made the connection that Hollywood was evil. Who could argue with that?The following year, while J.B. was now a seventeen year old senior, a part came along that I just couldn't pass up. It might be my last lead ever, since I was almost forty, and it paid two million!But it meant location. I go upstairs n change into bellas biker corset, lace knickers n biker boots. I tie my hair up high n lay out black ribbons n toys, drawing the curtains n pulling back the duvet, arranging the mirror n putting a kitchen chair where I want it. I call down the stairs in bellas voice telling u both to come up n bring me a glass of wine n my cigarettes. u roll a couple of joints n come up, I take the glass of wine n drink deeply, place it on the side n kiss you long and hard, ur arms around me, ur. "I, uh, I really like your niece,ma'am, but I kind of... I kind of like this too. All of it." I lookedup, hopeful. "I do think I want this. I don't think that's just myhormones talking either. It just feels, good?" I finished, with a shrugof my silk ruffle covered shoulders.Doctor Valentine looked at me speculatively. Finally she nodded toherself, some decision made. She wrote a paper up in silence, thenhanded it to the nurse that arrived as if by magic. The nurse returnedafter about 10 minutes. The biggest deal I've everseen." I'm trying to stay anonymous here. Pictures don't help." But I won't show them to anybody else." What about this Janie person?" She's my best friend! She wouldn't show anyone else. Promise!"Looking down at her, I can hear hints of Leeanna in her voice. I holdout my hand."Give me the phone."She doesn't do it right away but I motion with my hand for her to giveit up and she eventually does. I scroll through the photos, deletingall but two, one that shows my face.