We were still friends, just not as close as before. I spent months chasing a man that would only throw me some nuggets of affection every now and then... I did this because of all the men I went after in Okinawa…..Victor was the most mentally stable.+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++Chapter 5: The Crying MarineDuring a sweltering July Saturday night in 2006, I was at Fellow singing karaoke and making Toru and the old Japanese men smile. Right next to me was “Gay Ray”. Ray got the nickname, “Gay. Not a bad size either. As he lies on top of me I can feel it rubbing against my leg. It pulses as blood rushes into it, getting harder and harder. Oh my god I want it inside me. I think back to previous sexual encounters and how good it felt. I want to fuck a lot while I am in college and I don’t want to mess it up by getting pregnant or an STD so I reach down to the floor and slide my bra closer. I grab a condom and show it to him, ‘Sorry, don’t be mad.’ He smiles wide and snatches the. "More wisdom from Susan. "You have to walk a line though. You can't be one of those helicopter moms, hovering around so she never gets a chance to bump a knee or push her limits a little. And when that knee gets bumped, you have to be there to do the hugs and the doctoring, then turn 'er loose to go again." You say this from experience." You've seen my bicycle scar." I had. It's down her right calf, the result of a tumble over a picket fence at age eight. "Mom didn't make me stop riding. ..”“Wait a moment, Vert. You don’t have to go on. I’m convinced we have a lot to worry about. I’m glad you’re doing the worrying for us. I don’t think I can handle thoughts like those. I’d rather just do what I’m told, when I’m told to do it. Thinking about things like that is just not my thing.”“I know that, Relpt. That is why I like to talk about ideas and possibilities with you. I get to express myself to someone who can give me a fresh viewpoint. Talking with you is especially helpful when.