With Amber backing her up with all of the administrative chores of the core process of fucking guys to make a lot of money, she filled up two cookie j...rs before Amber told her it was time for her to bite the bullet and declare some income to the Feds in order to stay out of trouble if anyone ratted her out to make a bounty on the side. She decided on a young guy called Jack that was still wet behind the ears and just out of business school but he was real attentive and she knew from the way her. She just said, ‘Acting like a spoilt child will not help you Steven, I will not stop caring about you all, just because you bluster at me. Rachel has been hurt too, what about her and Alice? They need to be sure that you care enough not to hurt them again’ ‘What do you think I am Helen? This is the first time in over two years I feel alive, and you seem to be trying to take it away from me!’ ‘All I want is to be sure you are be true to yourself Steve’ she covered my hand with hers, just letting. .... how am I gonna talk you out of that boner?" " I want to squat over you and do it on you too. Oh god, don't look at me so weird. It's just pee. It's totally sterile when it comes out of my pee hole, cleaner than anything else we've been doing. Did you ever look at a woman's pee hole? Most guys can find her vagina really fast, and her clit if they aren't total idiots, and of course her ass, but the pee slit???? nobody knows where that is." She was rubbing herself and laughing. She was having. I had to tell him that it was never anything he did that caused me to do something so stupid and so selfish. God, how selfish was I? Even now when I remember the way I was thinking back then, it makes me sick to my stomach. Sick and miserable.I wonder what he thinks about me now? Or, if he even does think of me. And did he think of me during all those years? Like I thought of him? How many nights did he fall asleep, his hands holding his erection, wishing it were my hand holding him? As many as.