He found the section where their names had been carved into the Wall and his vision started to mist up. But he wasn’t crying, it was just the blaste... weather. Just like last year and the years before that.And even with the tears he still saw their names, and the memories came to him thick and fast, even if the minute details were slightly blurred after all this time. He saw them as they first met in the beginning, young and brave and not really understanding what they were doing but determined. I still don’t fully understand why we did as he desired of us. Some people have this influential power over others I guess. Anyway he recommended to Gwen that she be six months along, carrying his baby as she walked toward me to be joined in wedlock.Yes, her being pregnant by another man was the last test to determine my true love for her. Not just pregnant, but clearly and visibly showing with people knowing it was not my c***d.It was strange, but after I first committed to accept Gwen. I managed to convince myself that maybe you really HAD cheated on me with David. I guess it was a case of thinking if I was cheating, then maybe you could have been also. It eased my guilt. As long as I could in some twisted way make myself the victim it was simple to go on with the affair."I changed the subject. "Do you know why I left?" I thought you had taken all you could. I thought maybe you had run off for a little bit, that I had pushed things too far. But I thought you would be back. I. ..”Then she turned to Jenny and said.“You can just go”Jenny made the obligatory face at her sister and then stomped off to her room. Jamie and I retreated to her room. After a few hugs and kisses, and me trying to get the fires ignited again, Jamie yelled at me.“Stop! Go take a shower already!”Then she handed me one of her big bath towels and pushed me out the door.Shower time - ZaneI turned the water on, adjusted the temperature, and jumped into the shower. Naturally, all wet and soapy, I.