You've shown me that there are some good men out there, men like you, and I'm going to find me one, and I'm going to love him as deeply as I love you,...and unlike you, he'll love me right back. This lucky man and me, we'll make a life together, create a family and raise happy, healthy children. We'll grow prosperous and old together. That's my plan, my goal, now." Jenny and I have a similar plan." I'll harbor a secret, though. As I'm growing old with my man, I'll still think of you sometimes,. Stephanie was a very different thing because I could never marry her or have children with her. I needed someone else with the connection.But if that was the case, why did I need to keep looking. I had Jennifer. I didn’t need to keep looking. It made no sense. And then a single word popped into my brain — Birgit. I had thought she was my life partner, and Fate had taken her from me. If Fate took Jennifer away, who would I have?Joyce suddenly became second best, something to settle for. And I. So you won’t get all that head.” His voice was as quiet and soothing as it always had been. Body warm, his dry fingers gentle on hers. She closed her eyes and breathed deep, letting the smell of tobacco and soap linger in her senses. He smelled like home. The cup grew heavier with the moment and she released pressure on the nozzle, its whispering pour halting. Opening her eyes, she stared at his hand. “I didn’t know you were going to be here.” He took his arm back. “Yeah.” Dropping the tap in. Ruth described her as being almost breathless as she told her this news. Of course Ruth knew everything that I had said.With the new level of openness between Ruth and Sara, Ruth discovered a lot more of her likes and dislikes and relayed this information on to me. I of course used this to its best use and before long we were good mates also and every time we hooked up she was ready and willing to carry out my instructions.Ruth started to get a bit jealous of this as virtually every day as.