--------------Over the next week the things Nick said settled permanently in the back of my mind, never leaving my thoughts for long. The following we...kend we were at his house and I was in the kitchen with Suzanne. I kept watching her and getting angry, angry at what she was doing to my brother. I kept looking at her and thinking 'frigid bitch.' And then feeling mortified with guilt for thinking that about her. She is a loving mother.While having dinner my brother was all smiles talking about. “Hey!” he yelled. “Are we due for a furnace service?” “I’ll check at the office, let you know.”I grinned to myself thinking Maria would probably be needing to give me a tune up the next time he was out of town. And then I thought about seeing if I could get him to fuck me in the butt and wouldn’t that even things up for everybody, politically correct thing to do. I promised myself I’d run that by Maria to get her first impressions.I parked in front of Sylvia’s, got out and strolled through the. There were more giggles. And another woman's voice, this one to my right, said "No talking." I took a couple more steps. I felt fingers scratch lightly across my back. I spun to see who it was, but in the darkness I could see nothing. I reached out, and touched something soft - maybe a breast? It moved back quickly with an excited squeak, and I couldn't find it again. I moved around the room, feeling in front of me passing under water jets. I became convinced it was one of those large open. Even if I managed to hit up a girl at a Friday night dance at the Rat, when they learned I lived in the freshman dorms it was ‘see you later.’ Secondly, there were no girls to hit up. Like I said before, with a 14:1 ratio, the place was a total sausagefest.Finally, there was my course load, which was heavy. After a few weeks of classes I knew two things. One, I was probably going to be able to accomplish my goal of a doctorate (or at least a master’s) in four years, and Two, I was not going to.