Will I repair my past? I don't know. Some of it is repairable, other parts - fuck it, I say. Let it lay.I could feel her grin. I was proud of her.What...about your lost years? Josh asked.Lost years?Yes, those years when you couldn't maintain personal relationships, even friendships, the years when you couldn't function sexually.Ah, those years. Lost is a good description for those years. Except for my work, Josh, I'm going to write off those years.Do you have any past connections with people that. I now can monitor your every move. Nothing will escape me. You must ask for permission to do anything. Including going to the bathroom. If you do anything without permission you will be punished.5. You ass will be plugged at all times. The only time the plug is to be removed is when you have permission to use the toilet. The plug must then be in your mouth while you go and replaced when you finish.6. Whenever you hear a bell you will grab a toy and masturbate until you hear a buzzer. You. " Hurt like that." Ouch!" BIG Ouch!" So then what happened?"Believe it or not, it still worked, he went right through my hymen, buried himself to the hilt inside of me, which is when the door to the basement opens and down comes his father, mother, two younger sisters, they're all standing there on the steps looking down at us."No shit!" No shit, of course I'm looking up backwards towards them, dumb-ass who's still lying on top of me, thinking he's giving me the fuck of my life doesn't even. "I'm sorry Mommy" said Mindy. "I shouldn't have interrupted you." Sweetie, that's OK. Are you OK? When you fell down I was worried." That wasn't precisely true, but it was an opening to get the conversation going, so she used it."Yeah, I'm OK. Just embarrassed." Mindy was looking at her knees."Sweetheart, you don't have anything to be embarrassed about. What you were doing was just a reaction to what you saw and it's perfectly normal." Thanks, Mom." said Mindy. But I have all these... feelings,.