I was wondering if you… err." Oh come on Jerry, yes, you know that whatever you want, for you, yes." You know he's not had sex since my grandma pass...d on. He can still do it even at his age. He still masturbates almost every day. Would you… erm… please… err… will you…err…Oh Sammy, you are the only one I can ask… erm." Jerry, you want me to fuck him?" No" he spluttered, "No, well… erm… yes, but he's getting on a bit, I wouldn’t like to see him having a heart attack or something. You are. It was at that time I met her then 16 year old son.He was a girly-boy. He didn’t wear makeup or nail polish like some I had seen in Thailand, but he was a skinny little Nancy. I’m not against those kinds of people. I mean I’ve been around the world and seen a lot. I’m sort of live and let live, but I just had never expected having one in my life.Anyhow we got married and I continued working and traveling and being away for weeks and sometimes months. Time slipped by and married life didn’t turn. Jessica assured me that Claire flirted with all her friends' fathers, and no one took it seriously. It was her nature, too.I thought I could attribute the increase in guilt properly; I'd expected feelings of relief instead.Jessica took her leave minutes later, with hugs for everyone, including me. At last, it was time for a talk.I surprised myself when I said, "Elaine, would you mind if I spoke to Jay alone for a bit?"I surprised Elaine as well, but she said, "No, of course not. I'll just watch. He would kill himself then her if that ever happened.No you idiot, it’s kill her, then yourself, he berated internally as he shook his head.Deciding to have a shower to wash some of the terrible thoughts of Suki not forgiving him away, Dillon grabbed his towel and walked into the en-suite. For the first time in a long time he was going to just have a shower. Something had triggered in him, and he was feeling so much more for that leggy redhead than just infatuation and lust. It was desperation.