No more wishing for his hands to roam eagerly over every inch of me. No more fantasizing of pianos and a home filled with love, safety, warmth, and fa...ily. All of these are merely dreams that can never be and if I hold onto them then I will never know peace. We will never be together and I know that, with every bit of my being, I know it but God, how do you let it all go? Something so strong and sure? How do you implore your heart of hearts to see reason and allow yourself to heal? How do you. I begged her ” susan please forgive me,i can’t live here without you please”. Rakhi came near to me and pulled my hair and shouted. ” you bloody piece of shit, stand up and leave us alone.”. I cried very loud and pleaded. ” I would do anything for you.Please don’t leave me”. Susan came near to me she slapped me and said ” you are not a good friend,you should suffer a lot.We don’t want to be with you”. I fall on rakhi’s feet too. Rakhi ,please I am begging you .I swear I will do anything for. "Perfect" I thought.I waited about an hour until 3:30am, when I was sure she would be asleep. I crept down the empty hall to her room, a cloth in hand with a special chemical meant to put people to sleep was soaked in and ready.I opened the door, weary that the light may wake her up. Luckily she was sound asleep. I closed the door behind me and waited a few minutes for my eyes to adjust to the light, until the tiny light from my watch could be used to see.I leaned in close to the sleeping. Let me give you my number." He gave her our phone number, then said, "You too. Talk to you later."He walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me."That was the flower lady. The ones who did the balloons. June has the key and she doesn't work at the shop anymore. Debby's going to call her and get back to me."I have to admit there was a little something there. I know the red rose was gorgeous and I didn't expect it, which made it even better. But I wondered about any woman who would leave.