"I got up and went to the kitchen, Karen's eyes following me. Waitingfor the kettle to boil, I stared out of the window. I could see Jaynelooking back...at me. I had lost Carol, but with that loss Jayne couldvisit anytime she liked. She could stay as long as she liked. I wassad, but excited at the same time. Where was this going to lead? Itseemed that one of my fantasies could come true. Could I live as Jayne,could I get away with it? I was deep in thought and didn't hear Karencome into the. After several rousing songs, the couples were up dancing, and I found myself dancing by my chair alone. Several hours later, tired, a bit tipsy and very glad I had stayed, I made my way out and drove home carefully.Several weeks later, I was digging around in my purse, looking for something, and that flyer fell out onto the floor. I picked it up, and saw the band was going to be at the same place, the following Friday night. I decided I would go see them again. I had so enjoyed them and their. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout ... We all stood there, under the awning, just inside the door of the Wal-Mart.We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day.I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as. I didn’t know she was going to be there, but that certainly didn’t break my heart because she was so cute and lively.The second day I was there I was taking a shower when the door opened and this little naked girl slipped in with me. Expressing my surprise, she said she wanted to learn about male anatomy and this seemed like a good opportunity. I sure as hell wasn’t going to argue! She washed and dried me with an intense curiosity and then followed me out to my room.I’m not one for immediately.