Of course, Iwore it once to try to fool her before my brother basically took it forhimself.My brother was still sensitive about his situation though. ... learned thatnot long after I let him wear one of my old recital costumes with a pairof my pink tights and toe shoes. I thought back to the insult he hadhurled at me when I wore that same costume two years earlier and askedwith a smile, "So, sis, who's prissy now?"A scowl appeared on my brother's face as he blushed and instinctively wentto take. And from what I could tell, my presence completed her as well, transformed what had once been an almost regal bestowal of presence into something where she felt a true kinship with the others there.The "ice queen" had indeed thawed, and had been replaced with a woman who could be only that, a woman among other men and women. Our love for each other—and we were now professing it to each other daily, if not more often—had led both of us into new territory.When there was a sharp knock on the door. 'Oh my Goddess,the Pioneers are here and shot off the fireworks so the neighbors couldsee their handiwork.''I've left the alarm off the house and the back door unlocked! Oh shit,those F-ing lunatics can get inside the house!'I hike up my skirt and sprint back around. I have never run so fast inmy life. Everything looks empty. No gunwomyn running through our yardwith rifles. I dash through the door and lock the door. I arm thealarm.'Are they already inside? Are they murdering my family?' . The seed had been planted a very long timeago, just flashes of something disturbing that would sometimes come to herwhile having sex or in a dream. At first she was troubled and tried to figureout why or where these thoughts were coming from, but then she began to acceptthem, and finally embraced them. After all they were just thoughts. She hadalways secretly been attracted to women yet never really had the guts to acton it, plus she was married and the idea of sharing a woman with her.