Nothin Roy.. It’s just that you look, um.. kinda different than you used to.” Jesse sputtered out in his own defense.“No Shit, idiot. It’s c...lled being a man, faggot. Something you know nothin’ about. You look this way, when it’s time to fuck girls. When you’re ready to start fucking. Do you know what fucking is, faggot?” Roy continued to abuse Jesse verbally, now getting up on his knees.“Fucking, yeah… It’s what you do to have babies and shit….” Jesse tried his best. Both Roy and Brad. This was nofriendly invitation.Another paw, from another direction., "Think yer too young? No problem! We like fresh fruit...especially fresh cherries!"A drunken guffaw greeted this.Suddenly I got scared; I was no longer so eager to die."I'll do what you want!" I pleaded. "Please, just don't hurt me!"The first voice answered, chilling me, " Oh yeah little lady, you willdo what we want. AND we'll hurt you too, just for kicks." Hold her!" he commanded. A couple pairs of paws gripped me tight.. But I have to go on. I have to. Nick, baby, if you are reading this then please keep an open mind. Know that I love you. Always have, always will. Nothing has changed there. But there is something new; something inside me that I have to deal with and it doesn't affect the way I love you. I'm not trying to make something happen with Susan, but if it did – and I know you probably won't believe this – then it might actually be good for me. For us. I feel that very strongly.Damn, clock's ticking. I like how you kiss, too.” I grinned.Gail smiled back. “Thank you. I have found this house to be warm and inviting. I have no plans to leave now or in the future.”She shook herself. “I guess it’s late enough to head to bed. See you in the morning, Todd.”It was Friday evening. Amy had not bought a bottle of liquor. Gail was cooking supper with my help. I was actually learning something about cooking. I think it had to with my delightful teacher rather than I desire on my part to improve on my.