I was about to undress in front of a man for the first time. That he's a man I fear and hate made it so much harder. But I had no choice and I've alre...dy accepted that horrible reality. I've already surrendered to him.I reached for one of the remaining buttons on my blouse. Before I unbuttoned it I whispered, "Can we please go to my bedroom? I don't want my daughter to see me like this."He looked like he was considering it. But I realized that he wasn't. He wanted this to be as unpleasant for. I'm so excited I feel you must know it, and see it. As slowly and as quietly as I can, I slide the blanket off of me until I am open to you. I can hear breathing, but I don't know if it's just me, but I don't think it is. I can sense you move slightly closer. I'm not sure, but I think I can just barely see a certain look in your eyes. My heart is pounding as I think I can see the shadow of your hand reaching out to touch me. To hold me. I am throbbing as I sense the moment is near. A noise. Bob looked at me and I looked at Bob, waiting for his answer, running my tongue over the edge of my glass. As Bob finally began to speak, I felt little flutters in my stomach, not sure what he might say, wanting him so much to say lets go. Bob procceded saying, he would go anywhere with me, but there was ome problem, and that was that he had driven two of his other friends and he didn't feel it would be right to go off and leave then stranded. I thought for a minute then said to Bob, I have a. "This is mybirthday present to myself."Eric had tried on more than a dozen outfits and was taking home almosthalf of them. Gwen seemed to have a special touch for finding clothingthat could create the illusion that he really was a woman (the clothes,a body shaper, padding, a wig and a lot of makeup, especially beardconcealer, did the trick). Eric was in heaven while dressed. But now,back in male garb and sipping tea with Gwen, he seemed depressed."It's too bad I'm the only one who ever gets to.