It was the only way I could control my emotions. I was oblivious to the words the minister was saying. It was grief that was causing the way I looked ...nd felt. The casket was only four paces in front of me, and its contents held all the hopes, dreams and happiness as well as the body that had been in my heart for the last three years. Now my heart was empty of everything. At least I had the chance to say good-bye. That was something to be thankful for even as her soul slipped from this realm. I ... didn't expect you to do this to us. I ... can't say that I'm pleased with having my ass spanked, but you've got your point across. And I guess ... I deserve it. I'll do the best I can..." Virginia, I should have put a stop to this years ago. I've been a pussy, just because I love you so much. But you will be my wife, or I'll move into that other room. And I don't plan to sleep alone. I told you I was tired of having to jerk off. When my dick gets hard, one of you better take care of it.. "You bastard!" Derek stood threateningly.John dropped the two bags of groceries, probably containing beer and potato chips, and backed up afraid, "She'll never know who did it man, don't worry!"Frowning Derek advanced."I covered her eyes, she never saw a thing!"John was also not very bright. "You stupid bastard, she may not have seen you but she sure heard you and I talking this morning. Mom knows exactly who did this to her and where she is." That stopped him, John stood open mouthed, his plan. Use blunt, graphic language. No one else will see it but me. Don’t spare anybody’s sensibilities.“Make the story yours. Become so familiar with it that you can read it without crying. Live with it. Look at it objectively. In a week you’ll print the story and give it to me. When you do, your life will belong to you again, not to this horrible experience. Any questions?”“No, ma’am.”“Don’t procrastinate. This is a hard thing I’m asking of you, both difficult and time-consuming. Get started on it.