You'd be surprised how on a big farm, even members of a large family don't actually get that much face time with each other. Everybody is off working,...and a lot of that work can be done alone.As I was saying, since Christmas was one of the few down times during the year, we took it to heart and family was the central point of attention. Which was why my mother got into a real tizzy when Aunt Wendy called and said she couldn't make Christmas dinner after all. Apparently she was some reticent. The frustration, for some reason, caused me to actively want to try to find out who my birth family was. I had come across what had seemed like something promising but fell to pieces at the last minute. I fell into a depression and missed a few job leads. Then my sister stepped in, and we ended up having sex for several days. That's funny, why had I previously thought we only did it the one time? Any ways by the time we were finished, I felt energized and ready to make my mark on the world. May. Her hot little body was almost too much to play with and then to watch her cum so hard made me want to explode."Come with me Tami," I said and lifted her up off her bike. She didn't say a word but rather lifted her young legs up off the bike and wrapped them around my hand. I carried her around the bike and it fell to the ground. I made a thud and Tami looked out the front door of the garage to see if it alerted anyone. No one came and she turned back to me and watched as I carried her over to. Yes a kid; that was the answer. If we had a kid, then this probably wouldn't have happened. It was the first time the lack of children had featured in my thinking. We didn't have any and up to now, that had been okay, or at least, I thought it was.My thoughts tumbled and jumped from one place to another, no answers came that would make me feel any better, but in the depression I was forcing on myself, it was obviously my fault, my failing and really, why did she stay with me anyway?My mood.