I know there isn’t much that can be seen from up here. I would still like to look. when will I ever get another chance to witness history in the mak...ng.”Jake shook his head. “I doubt this will go into any history books, but I understand your point. XO you have the bridge. The duchess and I will be on the aft deck if you need me.” He stepped over to the door and retrieved one of the spare harness and lifeline set from a locker next to it. When he turned to give it to her she was standing very. Or I can go in the bathroom.”“No,” she said, quickly. The thought of him getting up and leaving was not a happy one. “I should conquer my fear about this.”“Only if you want to.”“Bob, you have no idea what you just did to me. I’ve never felt like that any time in my life! How can I possibly deny pleasing you when you have done so much to please me?”“How about you explore a little, and we’ll see how things go?” he suggested.“Okay. How do I start?”“Well, get comfortable beside me, so you can reach. His only issue with her was her promiscuous past. It was not that he begrudged her sexual past nor was he burdened by a typical male jealousy that could not tolerate a wild sexual history of their girlfriends. No, his problem was the fear that because Linda was used to having so many lovers in the past, that she would soon tire of him and seek other new loves to conquer. To counter these unhappy speculations, Walter did truly believe that Linda was not a slut and a whore. Her past promiscuity. It reminds me of the name of that old British sitcom, "Waiting For God".It won't be long now. I welcome it. My cocktail of current drugs do nothing but blunt the pain.But it gives me peace, and time to remember.I can still recall vividly the first night we welcomed CeCe back into our bed. Slow and tentative, exploring, touching the remembered with new appreciation. It wasn't the powerful couplings of twenty somethings, but mature love with all its' ramifications. Thanks to the pill Amy got me I.