”“Good,” Xandra whispers in my ear from behind, “I really want you to find out what it’s like to cum this way.”“So do I,” I tell her. ...��But I’m nervous.”Xandra’s breath is warm on my neck. She whispers into my other ear this time. “You should be.”I turn my head in minor alarm.After a sideways eye at her companion, Emily turns her gaze back to me and says “What she means is that it’s normal to be nervous.”With a slight sigh of relief I say, “Oh… I see.” In a certain light, I actually find it sexy. " Say how was practice?" Sam asked, changing the subject."Not that good actually. I was distracted thinking about you and Freddie." Carls, we don't want you to feel weird about this," Sam took another bite. "We can cool it, if you want us too." No Sam, don't do that. I'm happy for you guys. I'm shocked about it, but so would be a lot of people."Sam nodded."And I'm just upset, or I was upset because you guys didn't tell me. But I'm over that now."At that moment, Freddie stumbled into the living. And then, on the first anniversary of her death, things begin to change. ———————– December 23 It rained. It’s never happened before. I don’t really know what to make of it. The sky just wept for hours. I sat on the front porch of the beach house, under the tin roof, and listened to it beat down. Eventually I got up to pour a glass of red wine, and to light some candles. By late afternoon it looked like a little shrine around me–candles flickering, a half-finished bottle of wine on the table,. After few seconds of kissing she started getting in mood and became so horny that she took the lead of the situation and started biting my lips and exploring my mouth with her tongue. This made me go even crazier and i started licking all over her face like a dog. She also responded in the same manner and for some time I went like a game as if trying to defeat each other by measuring the amount of kisses that we were giving to each other. My hands slowly move to her huge bouncy boobs and.