It's disrespectful to me. It's disrespectful to your family." Hewaits until I look up at him. "But mostly it's disrespectful toyourself."I'm caught in...awe. He trots up the stairs as I stand there with Mompulling on my arm. I knew Larry was big on honor and respect and, Idunno, machoness? This was intense. I've never seen him like this. He'sseething. I have never ever felt like I let someone down as much as Ijust let down Larry. His words are heavy. I don't really agree with him,I think. But. He tried taking a nap but his mind was wide awake. Her face was branded into his mind and he couldn’t get it out. She had told him he was a wonderful lover but did she mean it or was Nicole stroking his ego? If she was, she had done a good job of it. She made him feel like a real man. Where other women looked at him as he walked through the concourse most were repelled by his distortions.Nichol never made him feel like an ogre or a troll. The only thing she demanded of him was that he shave and. Julie wrappedherself around Alan. Alan had his hand on Julie's ass. He was delighted tofeel how firm and round she was. Young people are amazing he thought. His lastthought before he fell asleep was that he was the world's luckiest dirty oldman. They both slept soundly. It was still dark when Alan awoke. He saw the clock across the room said3:40am. He still had cobwebs in his head when he realized what had awoken him.Julie was no longer wrapped around him. In fact, he couldn't even see her. I turned in my seat looking at Bonnie “now what “ I said and held her hand.”What are we going to do ,where is this going, is the pain of not having you ever going to go away “I said . Bonnie stood up “I know where I am going , I am going to the back.What are we going to do . we are going to have sex.She said “and the pain .shit I am not going to worry about that now. She dragged me back into the back and started kissing me as I lowered her down on the bed. Her hands were wrapped around my neck.