.. but all that was there was an empty space, echoing the emptiness I sometimes feel inside. I closed my eyes, and forced myself to go to sleep, overr...ding the emotional pain that I felt.In my dream, we were together, somewhere. It was dark, and we were inside, sitting in front of a roaring fireplace, no other lights in the room. A bottle of wine was next to us, and we were laughing and talking. The firelight danced in your eyes, and on your lips. Your lips invited me to kiss them, which I did,. Of course, it was not true and, the moment he stepped on the field to join his new defensive teammates, the little breeze of hope quickly died, and they lost all desire to win and were just trying to not get hurt.One surprising moment happened in the fourth quarter when Coach Van Cleave called Tim up to him. Tim had been seated on the bench drinking some water and discussing their play with his teammates. Roosevelt was on offense with third down right at midfield. They needed to make ten yards. Through the years I have noted that several movies (Blade runner, Golden Eye, War of the roses, Modesty Blaise, Romeo is bleeding, Shadow warriors) has scenes with women scissoring men, which indicates that my interest is not as exclusive as I first thought.When I was in my mid teens I started practicing various forms of martial arts, though there seemed to be no discipline that satisfied my need to scissor guys. Judo came closest to my desires. Anyway all this made me confident and strong and. Sometimes I have to try on, like, five differentbras to find the one that just works? But I love it! I love how girlythey make me feel. And I love how great they make my body look." Wow, Ithought - it's so incredibly cool talking about this with another 'girl'like me.Erica smiled, "Same here. I LOVE wearing bras - all styles. It's the onepiece of underwear that only fits people with the right stuff? I thinkyou should do whatever makes you feel more feminine? You want to betotally believable, so.