Next weekend I again went for lunch this time her husband wasn’t there and I was very happy to know that and it was sunday so her maid also had off....She saw me smiling and asked what happened. I said nothing just remembered something. She gave me naughty smile. We all had lunch and then her kid went to sleep and we were watching TV. All of a sudden while talking the conversation moved to massage and I said I know how to massage as I travel a lot to bangkok and learned a bit there. She said will. And then…and then…you just…stopped.’ ‘Is saying I was scared a good enough answer?’, I asked trying to keep my tears at bay. ‘Come on. You know it isn’t. Are you ready to grow up or…’ ‘I’m sorry’, I interrupted. Finding my strength and ability to be honest is harder than I thought. But I am determined. This is my chance to prove I am new person. Even if I am not trying to be with anyone, I have to work on being a better person. If I don’t, I won’t be happy loving myself either. So here it goes,. Lexi notices and whispers "I know, I haven't hadsex in a year since I broke up. I'm taking someone home tonight." Wegiggle and I once again wink at her.We reach the lobby and the guys let us off first, I think just so theycan look at our asses. Then in about the middle of the lobby Lexi turnsto me and said have fun and I will call you this week to set it up. Wedo the double girl hand shake and turn and go our separate ways.Once again I notice my heels clicking on the marble floor and go. "Oh no!" I ran to the top and tried opening the door, but to no avail."Oh man, it's all my fault huh?!" Joseph said feeling guilty."No, no. I should have told you to hold it open." I tried to stay calm, but I just felt like screaming. Checking my phone, I said, "No signal. What about you?"He took his phone out and half smiled. "It has one bar, but that's good right?"It was worth a shot, so I dialed Desiree's number, but she didn't answer. So I just opted into sending her a text.-Hey it's Tony..