Why not..." I stuttered, flabbergasted."Because I knew I couldn't stop them ... and then I knew you would ... I mean, who wouldn't? After all, you don...t know me from a scummy hole in the floor ... and why would you? Nerdy, shy, bookish, Heather - always so smart with such a bright 'future' ... Fuck the future! I want you now! I always have, ever since Geo-1, and ... and ... I knew I couldn't, but I couldn't stand you being here without me..." But then," Janice asked, "why didn't you have sex?. Once my shirt was off she wrapped her arms around my body and unhooked my bra. Then her hands went straight to my breasts, massaging them in circles. Her mouth went to my left breast and her hand kept playing with my right. Her tongue, wiggling out of her mouth like an angry snake, just barely touched the tip of my breast. Making it hard and giving me chills all over. Then she stuck practically my whole breast in her mouth, sucking it hard. Then she stuck her head right between both of my. He would have had a pretty great view of my speedo clad arse walking past him to the water, and now he was getting the view from the front.Starting this post, I said that when you wear a speedo, most people don't care and aren't looking at you... but even with his sunglasses on, I knew this guy was checking me out.As I walked past him I gave him the slightest head nod with a sly grin, which was my way of inviting him back to my place... What would he do?Walking up through the dunes to my back. The sounds of her sobbing made me realize that I hadn't paid any attention to how she was receiving what I was doing. I looked up to see tears pouring down her cheeks. There was a small trickle of blood coming out around my finger. The reality of what I was doing began to overwhelm me."I can't believe what I am doing," I thought in terror. "This is my four-year-old daughter lying on my bench. I am finger fucking my own daughter."There was no way that I was going to be able to explain why I had.