Blowing my hot breath on her nipples and feeling them harden in my mouth. I pulled on the strings holding her bikini ties releasing her bikini bottoms...and easing them off.We kissed again as I stroked her pussy lips with just the tip of a finger and she took a quick intake of breath and this had the effect of raising her chest pushing her extended nipples into my chest. I was quick to kiss her breasts and felt her small nipples harden and poke against my lips.I kept up the kissing going lower. Gwendolyn!, I do like that one. Ok, Gwendolyn it is.What's your name?" This pathetic sissy is called Gwendolyn, Master Sir." Do you like that name?" This pathic sissy loves the name Gwendolyn Master Sir, thank youMaster Sir." Now Graham, you were asking me something?" This pathetic si..," Slap! My cheek stung as he slapped me."You asked me something Graham?"Unsure what was happening I started again, "Master S..." Slap! Again."Graham, you asked me something?"The penny dropped. I kept quiet. He. The kettle's boiling so go and sit down and we can have a chat."We chatted for another long while about this and that and then she apologised for the kiss the last time we met."Oh, I'd forgotten that already, don't worry. That reminds me; I had a look on that Friends Reunited site to see if any of the old gang were on that. Mary was listed funnily enough, but none of the others I remember." Crikey I don't want to re-unite with her that's for sure. She's probably a bull dyke these days, preying. Leaving no mark.The next day I carry on as usual, but my mind is a whirr, unable to focus, concentrate. The fear rises up from the depths in overwhelming waves. I can’t rid myself of the helplessness, the powerlessness, the constant anticipation of the regret I might feel if the worst were to happen. How could I live without her? What if I don’t get to say goodbye?I glance around at my empty job, the cheerful colleagues that wouldn’t notice if I was there or not. I had always felt that.