God bless her.We talked animatedly over dinner -- an excellent three courses I hadpersonally helped choose -- and giggled conspiratorially over speech...s.We were fast friends by the time the cake was to be cut, and it was nosurprise that he took me by the hand to join in with the first dance.He held me firmly, leading strongly, and I remember his fragrance ofleather and tobacco. In my heels we were the same height, and it didn?ttake me long to kick them off and dance in my stocking feet -- I. Main ne aik laat Shankar kay sinay par mari jis se wo bad kay nichay ja gira. Main phir ghussay se boli, tum khadim ho khadim hi raho main is ghar ki maalkan hoon aur tum nokar ho tum apni okaat nahi bholo ab yaha se jaao aur apna kaam karo aainda mere kamray may kadam rakhnay ki himmat nahi karna. Shankar uth kar khada hogaya aur bola, Mem sahib okaat ki baat na karain hamari bhi izzat hai. main ghussay si khadi hogi aur boli, haraam zaday izzat ki baat kar raha hai 2 takay kay nokar agar main. If she talks to the other women, or any of the guys, I?ll have to look for a new job. I can?t deal with rumors or speculation about me and continue to produce the good works I?m accustomed to putting out. Either that, or if thechanges become too pronounced, with a new job I might also have to adopt a new lifestyle, too. That?s the last thing I want to consider though, having to actually become a woman publicly. After all, mentally I am a man, it?s just that physically and through no. I was blushing in red faced humiliation trying to avoid any eyecontact and whenever possible turning my face away so as not to berecognised. Eventually we came to a point where the path petered outabove a small shingle beach and I stood behind him, only wanting to goback home and for this whole putrid episode to end. He started backthen, pulling me along once more and I was hopeful, until we came to alittle side path. Holding my arm tightly he guided me along it for ashort way until we came to.