Finally, I slipped on the pairof stilettoes I'd worn before. I step out of the bathroom to go find afull length mirror. The look this time was so sedu...tive; a beautiful andsexy French maid. I head downstairs."Wow, you've out done yourself this time," Sammy said with a smile."What's this?" I ask pointing towards a contraption in the middle of theroom. "Want to try it out?" she asks as she helps me into position. "It'sto keep you at blowjob height." Astonished by what she'd just said, Ididn't. It poisoned my mind with thoughts of freedom. But if I never found out my parents weren't gods but just regular people, I never would have rebelled so fiercely. I never would have wandered aimlessly all those years.I wish I could go back to those innocent times. I yearned to be fresh and clean. I would be happy with my parents. Mankind wouldn't be descending back into barbarism and brutality. The world would be perfect.There was something soft beneath my cheek. Sunlight warmed my back.I opened. With LoveMom Dear Mom, you looked fabulous in the photo, which proves my compliment correct. You still look young and dashing. The other compliments I wanted to tell you were about you as a person and your body.I’m not sure how you will take these coming from your son, but I’m telling you this as a man and not your son. So here it goes, Mom, or let me call you Samantha. I think you the most loving woman that a man can have in his life.The way you treated dad and then Jack made me feel jealous. He could see more here, but I was sideways to the window. I wondered if I had the nerve to give him a better look.It went against so much of my upbringing! Then I thought of Carl, and Karen, and the other kids in the program, and what they were going through.They weren't just being spied on from next door. Everyday they went to school knowing they were literally going to strip naked and walk through crowded hallways, sit naked in class rooms, even be the subject of classroom instruction the way.