I was still out of my senses when Nick simply withdrew his hand and continued chatting with Tom. Just then I noticed that Tom had a hard on. I then kn...w that he was aware of what had happened to me………We said nothing about it.That same night as I was taking a shower to get ready for bed. I felt confused and baffled, I love my husband deeply yet here I was having sexual fantasies of another man. I wonder if Tom has fantasies about other women. The warm water beating on my body seems to relax me a. " Yeah, I kind of know you. My name is Qoot Al-Qoloob." How's the baby?" Oh, he's fine. I guess." Er ... You guess?" Uh, Yeah. Look, it's like this. I left him to my mother to take care of him." I see. That must have been very heartwarming, I mean having a baby." Yeah, it was. But there's one thing that I hadn't really thought about until yesterday. The baby was born eight months ago and now I'm producing milk. By the gallon, it seems like, and nobody to nurse. Because I feed him artificial. "But Darren insistedon wanting to look and live like a middle aged woman." But why?" Melina asked. "No offense to your mother, but why would youwant to look so old?"By this time, I'd heard that question at least a thousand times and Ianswered it the way I had always answered it, "Because I want to be justlike my mom." The look on Melina's face told me that she didn'tunderstand, and to tell you the truth, I was beginning to have my owndoubts.Now that it was over and done, it wasn't fantasy any. That accounted for the ever-so-soft Germanic accent. Hisundergraduate degree was from Britain. "If you're going to write inEnglish," he said, "where else would you go to learn to write?"We talked all the way, and the rest of our conversation was light andfun. But in an hour and a half, that's about the only personalinformation I got out of him. By the time we drove into Milan, I had ahunch that I'd said too much about myself.As the bell captain took my day bags out of the Crown Victoria's.