I didn't even understand the question. She repeated it. There was no anger in her voice, no hurt in her eyes, just the question, “Is that what you w...nt?”“I don't know.” I answered her. “I lost track of what I want a long time ago and lost track of who I am today. I did things today that I never would have thought myself capable of doing. I have never felt rage like that, and I certainly have never wanted to hurt you or take advantage of you like that. When the shit hit the fan though, I did. I. .. I..." I got up and placed a hand on her scrawny shoulder. "No need for any of that," I said in my most forgiving tone, "These kind of misunderstandings happen all the time in places like this. You just pop back and tell the others and we'll forget about the whole thing, how about that?" Pamela didn't say another word, she just shot out of my office and disappeared downstairs. I went back to my desk and e-mailed Lena and told her about my little chat with Pamela. She had to have the same. " Remember, think Girly thoughts. And say yes Ma'am and no ma'am. You'llbe fine."I stood in front of the desk answering questions and was allowed to aska few of my own."Well your Mother here was one of our brighter Kittens. I really thinkshe went out of her way to get demerits so the others wouldn't pick onher for being brighter than they were," Miss Gwen said. "Her motherregistered her as a straight Kitten though. So she got 'All' thepleasure classes. But you're registered as a. From what I have been able to find out she is not the first. If you can do anything, consider it my last wish. I am going to the club to have a talk with her boss while I'm in Florida. I guess if you're reading this, things didn't go well for me. Harry, you have been my best friend for ten years. I love you like a brother and know that you will take care of my girls. Please tell them that their mother and I love them and always will. Thank you Harry, for being my friend and brother." Your.