"By the way, if you've already given him oral and anal, he'lldefinitely be expecting you to put out."The day wraps up soon after that, leaving me to c...ean up and get changedback into my usual boyish t-shirt and jeans. I'm left with a sinkingfeeling in my stomach: The dread of having to see that guy again, thehumiliation of the whole ordeal so far, and the unfulfilled horninessafter experiencing an exaggerated form of my ultimate fantasy but stillbeing stuck in chastity. At the end of it all. ?Not yet. Let's talk a bit, first? you say. And many menstop there, not recognising your well-camouflaged desires, this quintessentialbehavioural self-contradiction a la Japonaise . But this time youknow it there will be no stopping, that in coming here with me you have alreadyirrevocably crossed some threshold? Still holding your hair I speak to you, for the first time softly but firmly. ?Listen,now, Pia. You are pretty and intelligent. But you have much to learn, so muchto understand about. As he watched, the sub sank beneath the water with barely a hiss and a gurgle to wait for the planned rendeavous.The row to the coast was done efficiently and silently. Every once and a while there would be the discrete flash of a torch to keep the inflatables together. Once they got close to the shore David could again see high cliffs – and the men grumbled quietly – according to the Intel there was supposed to be a shore – and a beach. Fortunately the sea was calm – or they would have been. His wife, I say in my head a few times. The term makes me smile. I used to think about having my own wife, hoping that she’d be everything I’d want and that I could make her happy. Who knew that I would be a wife to another guy.When I came home from the medical center after having everything about my manhood stripped away, I hated this body. I remember the new weight of my growing breasts being a constant reminder of my loss. The slit between my legs was another reminder, one that kept me aware.