We talked a little more while we undressed and prepared for our evening massages.The tables were side by side but facing in opposite ends. It worked o...t better that way. I didn’t want Cal to look directly across at my face and see the pleasure I was receiving. Cal was actually the shy one tonight. He left his shorts on. I noticed his eyes open wide as he watched me undress. It was like it was his first time he’s ever seen me naked. I could see it pleased him as I slowly removed my top. My. It feels so good. I feel so confident now. This is who I am. This is what I like. This is what I want. But what about the ‘love’ in ‘I love you’? What is love? I told Josh I loved him. I meant it. I’m sure he meant it when he told me he loved me. But he wasn’t the man for me, obviously. Since having Danny, I’ve come to realize love is a giving and a receiving. It’s helping the other person grow in whatever way they want. It’s also respecting who that person is because they share your values.. He thought theymight have been in danger there, and had surprised himself by defendinghis friends that way. He had for some time wondered if his manipulationmeant he'd only cared about their bodies, but he suddenly felt sure thathe did indeed care about them as friends. The attractive exteriors weremerely a bonus. He pulled off his jacket and boots and slumped back onthe rather comfortable bed, stretching after the long day's journey.There was a soft knock on the door."Who is it?" Herevor. ’ There was no problem in doing that, of course, and, later, I was able to get a wireless camera that transmitted the scene to the television set in our bedroom so I could watch in real time as it was recorded in high definition. Technology is wonderful! We went out and walked the path that they would be following Saturday night to see if Sandy saw any problems. Actually, the ‘path’ was paved with blacktop that provided direct outside access to the suite, but Sandy was concerned about following.