"The saddest part is that she won't remember anything in the morning. In her mind we are just a normal mother and son living out our ordinary lives in...an ordinary suburb of Denver."To say I was stunned is the understatement of the century. I remember thinking to myself that it must be pretty hard not to remember what had just happened in there. I knew I never would. Each detail, I found out later, was indelibly etched in my mind."You see, Roy, Mom's mother remarried when Mom was fifteen and. Ijust want to be certain that you really understand what it means to giveup being Jason. I think about you having this surgery and I just can'timagine having that cut off." Dad, I don't know yet about the surgery. It scares me too. Sometimes Ithink about it and I feel just the way you are feeling. But other timesI just hate it, and I just want it gone. I don't know how to make youunderstand how I feel. Every morning I get up and have to get ready forschool. The first thing I have to do. " Friday I went into work late and I came home early because I wanted to be with Sandy as much as possible. This was to relieve her from caring for Annie while she had other thoughts on her mind. I guess it wasn't necessary, because Sandy was paying more attention to Annie today than ever before.Sandy had called two different animal shelters and there would be several kittens to choose from. Annie couldn't eat breakfast Saturday morning because she was so excited. We went to the pet store on. "Nice do," Will says to me.Stewart's eyes are on me but he keeps his silence.I break. I reach up and tug on the hair-ties. They pop off and clatter onthe ground. My recently pigtailed hair now sits in wild clumps on eitherside of my head. Jenny quickly scoops up the ties."Fuck all you guys!" I yell out as I tear the tank top over my head andpull down the skirt.Dutifully, Jenny picks up both and puts them in her backpack. I've hadenough. This is ridiculous.Dev whistles at me in a bikini. Will.