Dana comes sometimes and she takes control, she can be a bitch, trying to run everything all the time. I get rid of her, it takes effort. I am Dan. It...is difficult to be a woman. Dan doesn’t like that. But sometimes I am her, I feel her pain. I wish, oh I wish I was just Dan all the time. I live each day inside me, I never know for sure who will be me on any day or moment. I live in a world no one can know, I live in a world of thinking and being in a way no one can undertstand, I also do not,. WOW I thought, I can hardly wait. That evening I went round to Gillians house with a small bag containing a Nightie and some clean underwear and a couple of changes of clothes. Gill was waiting for me and she showed me to her bedroom where we were supposed to sleep. I put my bag on the bed and we both went in search of her Dad. He was sitting in the living room and when we entered he smiled at us and said, "Come over here Girls and give me a Big Hug and Kiss" I went to him and Hugged him and. He examined my hands and between my fingers. He wasn’t rough, but he wasn’t exactly gentle either. He nodded again as he picked up his folder and wrote inside it. “What are you doing to me?” I asked helplessly. “Take off your clothes!” he ordered. “What for?!” “I need to do a body cavity search.” “Wait, wait I don’t understand…” He gave me a sinister smile. “Now you know what the gloves are for,” he said. Slowly, I got up from my chair as the young officer stood before me. His hands were. After the first time he took and ravished me, I felt strangely linked, as if he could sense the taboo desires within my breast that, once awakened could not, cannot, be put to rest again! I find myself wishing, when I make love to my sweet Emma or with James or, especially, Bull, that they would treat me roughly and take me by force…At night, I have waking dreams, recalling of the feel of Isshu’s tentacles wound around my limbs, pinning me helplessly as he plunged his phallus into my pussy or.