Elizabeth chewedher bottom lip. It was now or never! But she couldn't go back! She'dalready agreed, and she'd taken the groceries that afternoon as...well! Shewas committed! With trembling fingers she began to unbutton her dress. The small whalebone buttons seemed so tiny now! From somewhere close bycame the sound of a whistling kettle. She undid the last one. The soundof clinking china accompanied the sound of her dress as it rustled to thefloor. She stepped out of it just as Herr. Made breakfast for me alone, with some extra strong coffee to fight the horrible hangover I was having. Went to pick up the mail to read it latter, probably filled with bills I could barely afford.Last night I drank myself half way to the grave, trying to forget over the loneliness I was having. I drank myself away when I wasn’t able to get a date on a Friday night in the middle of L.A., not even a quick fuck or a drunken make up with a waisted chick. Nothing. I wasn’t even allowed inside the. 'Laura gave her a look of incredulity. "What does it take to get through to you? You told me that Jonathan wasn't big on words, did he ever tell you he loved you out of bed?" Sure, not very often, and he never elaborated much; it was just something he said because he thought he was supposed to. He never spent anything like the time that Rich did talking about love and what loving me meant to him. Rich would look in my eyes and his words would make me shiver at his need for me." Did Rich ever. ”That was a good idea since my whole arm was tingling like it had fallen asleep. Molly handed me my rubber ball and I started squeezing it while the doctor got the other cast off. More of the same. I found I was sweating by the time both arms were stretched out on the table beside me. Then it was the leg. She did a few movements with my leg, mostly to get the cast out from under it and see if the knee would bend. Then my table was rolled into an x-ray room.The x-ray tech was nowhere near as.