I wasn’t going to fall in love with anyone else and wasn’t going to force her to do anything she wasn’t comfortable doing on her own. Caroline t...ld me she wanted some kind of commitment. I could live with that, as long as there was light at the end of the tunnel.Caroline became a fixture in my life- going to gigs with me and spending all our free time together. It took a few months, but Caroline finally gave up her chastity belt. We did finally fuck and I learned she wasn’t a virgin. Seems one. That sounds like a woman's reaction to me." I really couldn't believe that it was happening. I've never felt thatway before. Of course, I've never been in public completely dressed asa woman before either. I was feeling so much like a woman that checkingout those men seemed to be the right thing to do. I even found myselflooking at their crotches to see if they had erections." Elena, I'm so glad that you feel that way. Now there is another stepthat I suggest you take as soon as possible. .. I replied by saying that since I pay the electric bills online thru the internet, there was no chance that any bill would have missed the deadline. I also informed her that nowadays most utility bill payments can be made online through internet banking, whats more she can also see the status updates of many applications like Gas Booking, etc. Emails etc. I told her how in many ways computers & Internet had made life easier for us.Due to my detailed explanation of the benefits of computer, her. Owning and personalizing the place gave me a sense of belonging somewhere again. That helped my frame of mind, just as the gentle pace, and easy going days helped my body.My scars were terrible.Every night I looked at my chest and stomach and was once again, amazed to be alive. I was literally, torn to pieces by those shooters, yet survived, and healed up. Clearly the Universe had a job just for me, and it wasn't done.To that end, I put my bank and trust accounts, the farm, Fornier's property.