Scared. Alone. Tired. Cold. Crying. Always shivering. I miss you mommy. * Dusk. Such a long, long day. Sleeping a lot. Crying a lot. After Tony died,...Bobby came to me in the car. He said he missed me so much. I’m so confused. I know he died in Afghanistan but he came and talked to me and hugged me. He looked so good and he felt warm. Took off my socks and my toes look black. I think that is bad. Is that bad Mommy? Bobby tried to warm up my feet but it didn’t work. Bobby told me the highway. All of this is made possible by the oil on which the Emirate rests. When all the oil reserves have been extracted, in some centuries' time, the level of the land will have been lowered by an average of ten feet. The oil is a 'heavy crude' which is dug out of the ground in lumps looking for all the world like treacle toffee. There is none of the messy liquid to process and no unsightly wells.The Emir, His Magnificence Ibrahim, and his heir Crown Prince Gamel were travelling together, which was. By the end of the day my desires were at their peak and I rushed to the private catholic school where Monica was a senior. I found her sitting on the steps out front waiting for my arrival, dressed in her school uniform, consisting of a blue plaid skirt, white blouse, and knee high socks with black shoes.The sight of her made me feel the guilt that had attacked me early that morning, but the innocent sexiness of her school uniform quickly changed my feelings to lustful desire. As she saw me. My breasts were all visible. I covered them with my arms and looked at my sons with anger. They were shivering in fear and I slapped them both with one hand with the other covering the breasts. They started crying and I was so furious. Shouted what is this and kept on shouting and I started crying too. Then I left the room went to the kitchen to drink some water and adjust my clothes there. Then I sat on the sofa grabbed my head and lost myself in random thoughts.Then after an hour I calmed.