Did she think I was up to something or was she keeping track of me so she would know where I was in case she wanted to do something? Had she talked wi...h Barry after I'd had my session in the bathroom with him?My life went to shit on August 12th at 12:47 at a Safeway super market.Sam called me into his office at 11:35 and asked me if I was going out to lunch or staying in. I told him that I had intended to catch the luncheon special at Dave's Diner and he said:"Do me a favor and lunch will be on. That didn't work out either. My aunt then stepped up. Seeing how bad things where living with my mom then my dad, she moved me in with her. We where always close. Whenever I had a problem I always went to aunt Sarah. If I had any issues she was always the one I talked to. We could talk about anything, she was like a best friend not an aunt. As I matured she was even the person who gave me the sex talk. She didn't sugar coat anything and was honest. I already knew about sex, but it was nice that. I am in a daze, I feel as though the memories are just small glimpses of what happened last night, like they happened under a strobe light. We drank, we danced, Jason… oh God—Jason. The erotic experience floods my mind, every touch, movement became a snapshot and is being replayed back to me like a screensaver, and I stir under the memories. I’ve done well these past six months, I was able to control my urges and even find a real job. This doesn’t mean anything, does it? I mean, it was with. " How would you feel about living as Nicole all of the time?" Andreaasked."I want to be Nicole all the time," Nicole said. "I am Nicole all of thetime. I just have to dress as Nicholas. I don't want to have to dress asNicholas. But I'm scared." You're scared someone is going to bully you, hurt you, like they did atschool?" Andrea asked."Yes," Nicole answered. She was starting to cry."It's okay, it's okay," Andrea said."Why do people have to be mean to me?" Nicole said. "Why do they want tohurt.