That surprised me because he had been out of my head, until Susan and I started looking into his death.I saw him as plain as day. He was standing in m... doorway, saying over and over, “Don’t Ray ... please Don’t!”I saw myself getting out of bed and walking up to him, but as soon as I did, he evaporated away from me.I cried after him, “Dad, d-don’t leave. I miss you. I need you. I miss you. I need you...”“Ray, RAY, wake up, come on Ray, wake up?” It was Susan. “Don’t worry, I’m here. I’m here to. 30 and I suggested a late night drink, we went to a local hotel where un-benown to her I had booked a room, we sat at the bar and ordered a few drinks the barman was a tall Mediterranean guy about 25 years old, Jade was getting drunk and was flirting with him outrageously, she said she was going to the loo and walked off, I spoke to the barman whose name was Carlo and asked if he found Jade attractive? A little embarrassed he said he did, I asked if after he finished work if he would like to. Next day is my play.I serve her as sweet as ever on the day I am on duty to fullfill her wanton wishes with me as her submissive.I serve her as well as I can, but she does not dare to reveal her hottest sexy secret of her submissiveness.I serve her the same sweet sexy services as always, by banging my beautiful blonde baby from behind.I serve her well that tasty day full of tease and sweet seduction to satisfy her wishes to mutual satisfaction.I make my day the most memorable for us both as you. Or perhaps, simply because I enjoyed it. The most simply explanations are usually the right ones.Ken maintains that everything I did, I did because I wanted to, not because he forced me or told me to do it. I never felt coerced or under any pressure to do anything. I think I really enjoyed being told what to do. I always felt, in a strange way, that I could not be held accountable for any of the things I did and the full accountability lay with Ken. Ken was the instigator and thereby assumed.