I was almost out of my mind.Remember, those days no Internet!“Well,” I said. “You took your time. Good news, I hope?”I can be bitchy.“Very g...od news if you can make this Friday, Saturday and Sunday?”“I think so. No wait. I have a meeting on Friday and Saturday morning. Damn. Why? What had you planned?“It’s been harder than I thought. It’s a very closed society but I put feelers out and got a call this morning. A k9 meting was arranged with five guys, a woman and three dogs.”“Three dogs?!” I. Patricia played with the drying curls of my hair as she answered, "She said you were looking for an adventurous woman who was not afraid to try new things, and wouldn't judge you for what you liked. She also told me about the questions she asked you and your answers." So that's what that was all about!" I said, thinking back, "I thought those questions were a little odd at the time, but we'd discussed stranger things, so I didn't worry myself about it. She must have had you in mind when we had. I’ll have one too please.’ Pete and Becky took their ice cold beer outside and sat under the large tree beside the driveway. Pete looked out over the current river and stretched his legs out in front of him. He sighed and said, ‘Thanks for your help today. I didn’t think I’d finish the sanding until at least next weekend. Heck, I am ready to paint at least a week earlier than I thought I would be thanks to you.’ ‘I really enjoyed it Pete. I didn’t think once about…’ Becky stopped talking and. He deserved a final memory, a final fuck. Forces of nature I was still learning about were tearing at my young heart: the force of the closer cold moon was competing with the warm but distant sun. My world was tilting on its emotional axis. Where sun and warmth had reigned now cold and darkness had arrived with creeping unsettled new feelings of discontent finding their way into my soul. I loved him and yet I didn’t did I? How could I protect him from my new “self”? I couldn’t I didn’t think?.