Tony could sense her distress. "Home... you're really homesick, aren't you?" I like it here too. And you have made life here very special for me. But ...here is no place like home," she said, a woebegone expression on her face.She lay her head on his chest and he stroked her hair for a while, wondering what he could say to comfort her. Then an answer came to him."In that same sense," he pointed out, "Canada isn't really anyone's home, except for aboriginal people." What do you mean?"He told her. She answered me again and I gently kissed the side of her neck. "Wonderful... I wouldn't want you to have to change plans or anything." She knew I was teasing her. I enjoyed teasing her, and I could feel she liked it too."I am sure I'll be able to go out tonight. I have my own apartment now." She said. "All I have to do is clean up and feed my kitty."I laughed. " You won't have to worry about that." I paused. " What time do you think you'll be ready?"I was still holding her close, and I. ”He said, “Take it easy Terry, we’re just talking.”He waited a minute, then said, “I hear what you are saying, but why do you say you can’t be gay? Why do you say that so vehemently?”i couldn’t answer.“Let me ask you this, have you been with girls before?”“Yes.” i told him i fooled around with a girl a few times the past summer.He said, “Okay. Why don’t you tell me what you did with her?”“We kissed and i fingered her and she gave me a blowjob.”“Did you enjoy it.”“Yes. It was great.”“Okay. So. But if it's what you want, I'll go."Maria unwrapped herself, slid off the bed. "Don't you understand? If you stay, I might fall in love with you, and then where would I be? Just go, leave me alone before you hurt me more than you ever have." She stood there crying, tears running down her cheeks.DeeDee pushed back off the bed, standing across from Maria, tears rolling from her eyes. "You really want me to go?" How many times do I have to say it? Go, for God's sake, just go! Please?"DeeDee.