"You are better than faithful," I countered. "You have been honest withme up front. I can now deal with your sexual appetites because we talkedit over... explained our feelings for each other, and I can cope with it.They call it 'informed consent'. Susan wasn't honest with me, probablyhasn't been from the start. I know she's fucking Jeff Spencer. Who knowshow many there have been before him I don't know about? There is no wayto know, and now and I don't care to. It's over. I have the better. Is that the attraction? Is she just something I cannot have so that makes me want her all the more? I don't think so. There are plenty of women and girls that are off limits for me. Technically speaking, there is only one woman who isn't off limits.She shifted. I watched her hands slide across her notes one more time. Her knuckles whitened just a bit as she gripped them harder than necessary. My eyes paused on her delicate hands one more time. I wanted to press my lips against the back of her. Every time I’ve tried to say something, you’ve scampered off. What the fuck? You told me about Jessica and Shannon last semester and I’m still your friend after that shit. Nothing will drive me away.’ ‘I feel the same way,’ Cindy added. ‘You know my secrets and I know yours. We can help you through this mess.’ I sighed deeply and smiled. For the first time in weeks I felt some relief. ‘We actually stopped by the office on purpose. Sarah and I hoped we’d catch you and be able to coerce. Yet, as soon as this woman spoke to me I obeyed her command without hesitation. My head felt as if it were stuffed with wet cotton, but I was otherwise awake and in command of my faculities. I followed the woman's large swaying rump down the passageway. At the end of the car first she and then I exited into bright sunlight, stifling heat and humidity. Although the train had been hot, walking into the open air was like stepping into a sauna. The instant the humid air hit me, I could feel the.